BLOG ENTRY 014: A Letter for October

tracklist

October ~ Alessia Cara

No ~ LANY

Ravish ~ Kelsey Breedlove

Magical ~ Ed Sheeran

this is what autumn feels like ~ JKVE

Lost Time ~ SHORE

heaven, hell, and canada. ~ normal the kid

Watching You ~ NIGHT TRAVELER

I have more than enough ~ Searows

Feels like ~ Gracie Abrams

In the First Place ~ RYVOLI

Michicant ~ Bon Iver

Woods ~ Bon Iver

Unknown/Nth ~ Hozier

Moments ~ Harrison Gamber

Dear October,

I’m not so sure why I feel the need to sit here on the first night of the new month and express some desires that have lingered long enough to create its own fog, hoping something can drive through it so it can hang low enough to the center of my mind. Now, this isn’t gloom. This fog is one that wants to be held but time never allows it to stop. I pray to embrace what God is preparing at the table for me. When change is evident with God’s creation to the decorations people have decided this year to place, hopefully people gravitate back to the pull to hold a warm cup of coffee or tea, we trade our clothes for a more appetizing comfort, and welcome the new season with its offerings. I always look towards the birds migrating in groups as the sun sets and there’s a sudden chill in the air and I always have. Ever since my family all knew how to ride our bikes together, we would ride in the evening in our neighborhood, and I felt like I was flying with my own flock. It felt like a dance you wouldn’t forget it’s footwork to. A new season means there are doors of adventures, waiting for a tug on the knob, granting access.

Maybe I’ll do more for myself in a way to heal from loneliness of my own mind’s life, like sitting outside in my back porch, gazing at all the leaves that gracefully kiss the ground and honestly, whatever comes to my mind to appreciate for what’s around me. I could go for more solo coffee dates and switch the scenery of where I would complete my schoolwork, now that I will have another class to take. I also pray that this is the month of new opportunities, and that also translates to new challenges to face. I’m feeling nostalgic for what I was doing this time last year, but I don’t want to repeat or duplicate it this year because there would be a lack of being in the moments I’ve been blessed with. If I have more things to be thankful for, I will write in my personal journal, or my small left-handed field notes notebook meant for my coffee shop diaries.

I live to see more Octobers like these. I’m reminded of Anne of Green Gables where she had said, “I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers”, and I agree with her. I live to see what I’ll be pouring out and in this month. What a beautiful aroma of a warm cup of coffee and sweetness of the year simmering in my heart.

Keep pouring,

Khalie x