Blog Entry 004: a journal entry

july 24, 2023

Lately, summer has been nothing than the southern sunset and drives for ice cream or Crumbl cookies. Other activities have been scrolling endlessly on Instagram, YouTube, or Pinterest, which can cause a rabbit hole of comparison that is suffocating me more than ever. I haven’t felt like this in a WHILE. Maybe it’s because I’m not sure of what I’m in control of in my life. I find myself feeling like I’m being left behind in certain seasons that people got a pass on. One ticket to dating season, please! No response.

Yet again, I’m aware that God is in control of where my life goes. This is not my life; it’s been His all along. There’s a lesson that I haven’t learned yet. And that’s okay. My emotions are fleeting, they are only temporary. Right now, they don’t agree with that last statement. I have this saying on my bedroom wall: “Feelings are fleeting, but faith is forever.” I don’t know if someone else has said this, but this feels original. FAITH has been the word I’m learning this year. So, I have to believe that he has good plans for me. Psalms 23 has to be my favorite passage of scripture; “He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me besides still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.”

That is my foundation, as well as ‘comparison is the thief of joy’ because I am guilty of that! I could make a list of everything I’m starting to become insecure about, but that doesn't do anyone any good. Those things are what make me how God sees me. I’m in the likeness of him & made in his image, so the fleeting, worldly things don’t matter.

Also, I might start drinking decaf since I’ve been wanting the taste of coffee at night but not the lack of sleep. But who knows!

Cheers to less screentime & celebrating the season I’m in!

Keep pouring,

Khalie x